Good morning world. It’s a beautiful Saturday morning. I love the mornings. It’s quiet and peaceful. Everything seems fresh. I intentionally get up early. It’s my time to meditate, pray, write, exercise- my time to take care of me before the rest of the people in my world arise. Self care is vital. I haven’t always focused on my needs and I’ve faced some heavy consequences for that. But now I do better. I’m taking better care of the whole me- physically, mentally, spiritually, socially, financially… I’m not in competition with anyone nor am I looking for validation from anybody. This is about me being and living my best- because I’m worth it.
I’ve been determined to get stronger and walk out the better version of myself every single day. In order to do that I had to rediscover exactly what that looks like to me. What does living a good life look like to me? What does good health look like to me? What does financial freedom look like to me? What am I willing to do or give up to have it? What does honoring and using my gifts and skills look like to me? What does a good relationship look like to me? What do I want my tomorrow to look like? Are the things I value in my life noticeable in my life to me?
I highlighted “to me” because all the folks in our lives have a vision on what our lives should look like. It’s so easy to get caught up in someone else’s definition of who you are or who you should be. If we are not careful, we will begin to live out their vision and version of us instead of our vision of who we are. This can easily lead to confusion, frustration, stagnation, and the worse thing- our forgetting who we really are. In addition, our values, desires and needs change over the course of time. What I want and need at age 50 is not necessarily the same thing I wanted and needed at age 21.
I’ve been back at the drawing board- not mapping out a brand new plan for my life, but editing. I’ve had to change some things- rearrange some things, recheck my thought life, ask myself some questions, forgive myself for when I took myself out of the my own story, or when I took a wrong turn or detour, reposition some people in my life, welcome new people, obtain new information…
It’s funny how we so easily remember to make sure our cars are running smoothly- we change the oil every so often, rotate the tires, check the fuel gauge, clean out the inside, wash and wax the outside- but often forget to make sure we’re running smoothly.
Things were not running so smoothly in my life and I had to discover why and then adjust. Part of it was just the natural bumps and potholes in the road that we all encounter. Some potholes do more damage than others. And if left unchecked, more problem emerge. I had left somethings unchecked.
Life is really a journey and as long as we live, we will have to make adjustments. That’s okay. That’s part of the process. That’s life. It’s a part of growing. It’s a part of discovering who you are. Don’t ever feel bad about having to make adjustments. Make them and move forward. You owe it to yourself to be the best version of you.