I am a living witness that often times you wrestle in the area of your gifting. I am an encourager, a counselor, a communicator. I’m passionate about helping others see their gifts, their impact and be introduced to the “them” they haven’t met yet. Over the course of decades, I have literally sat with, listened to, and talked with thousands of people- heard thousands of stories as to why they think they can’t accomplish or be something. I’ve watched them take that dreaded first step into new directions that ultimately changed their lives and their world around them. Whether it was a homeless client, a disgruntle employee, a pastor who needed refueling, kids that didn’t understand why their parents can’t be happy together, CEO’s struggling with secret addictions, a young person, not even of voting age, being told to pick out the day she wanted to die and how she wanted to spend her last days because her heart would fail and she was not eligible for a new one, a spouse seeking affection outside of marriage, a kid trying to get off drugs, a university student still being raped by her dad when she returns home on the weekend… I’m telling you, I’ve almost heard it all. I’ve seen the tears, the breakdowns, the anger, the confusion, the emptiness that most people don’t want you to see. I’ve kept their confidence as they shared their secrets, their struggles, their hopes, their dreams…
I tried to provide a safe place for others while often failing to create one for myself. I’m human. I have at times wrestled to stay encouraged. I wrestled with pursuing my dreams. I’ve wrestle with wondering if my life is making an impact. I have bottled up my feelings at times. I have wrestled with the expectations of others or with folks whom I love not “getting” me or seeing my value. And just like I had to do today, I’ve had to remind myself that God is my safe place. I can share my heart with Him at any time. When I close my eyes in meditation, I remind myself that there is nothing I have to “do” or “become” that would make me more beloved, protected, favored and valued than I am right now by the Father above. He just loves me for who I am- the me He created. Therfore, I’m allowing me to be who I am- loving me for who I am. Creating that safe environment for myself- Treating myself better than anyone else could possibly treat me- Releasing myself to flow in my gifts- Keeping good people in my circle-Helping others and allowing God to reveal me in any way He chooses.
What about you? Where is your safe place? How well do you take care of yourself? Are you stuck in the struggles or are you anchored to hope? Are you wrestling with becoming or have you found the grace and power of being? Just some off the cuff thoughts today.