We made it to the last day of 2012. I’m not as reflective as I have been in times past- probably because I’ve been so reflective throughout the year. For me, it’s now about continually moving forward, embracing God’s grace, purpose, & victory, impacting lives, and living me- no excuses, no apologies! “Well, Wendy, that sounds good and all but what in the heck does that really mean?” Listen, something I had to come into grips with in 2012 was that you may not know what that means for me. You need to know what “continuing forward” means for you.
I spent way too much time in times past wrestling with how do I get people to embrace, to see, to understand, to support, …etc. People who have known us for a while often have one image of us and trust me it’s not the complete image. It’s difficult for them to see us as anything other than what they think they know to be true. They might even get a little nervous or panic when we step out of their comfort zone of who they believe we are or when they don’t see us responding to certain situations as they believe we should. I don’t blame them. That’s how people are and spending lots of time trying to convince them just keeps us from moving forward- no one to blame but ourselves. We have to remember that we are not responsible for the beliefs and thoughts of others. However, we are responsible for being us, for living us as God reveals us to us.
To some I’ve been known as the counselor, the consistent and dependable friend who gets along with everyone, the preacher, the rescuer, the behind the scenes problem solver, never making waves (well, at least some people thought that), the peacemaker, the (uh oh) level-headed one. Those are good things, right? Cool, but that’s not all of me. There’s more inside of me which continues to reveal itself to the world around me as I journey forward.
Certain areas or periods in my life are forever gone, over, dead and every day (not just on New Years), I’m stepping into my future. My moving forward may look different from yours. Don’t judge my journey by your journey or even by my previous road trip. I’ve moved away from the old things, the dead things, and just as important, the tomb- that thing that keeps me connected to those things. I encourage you to do the same!
I find it interesting how after Jesus’ death, Mary came to the tomb bringing spices, perhaps to finalize the burial process. The Angel of the Lord said to her “Why are you looking for the living among the dead? He is not there. He is risen (See Luke 24).” Notice that Jesus Himself hadn’t stuck around the tomb to explain- to tell folks he was alive and well. He wasn’t leaning against the tomb wall telling Mary, “See, what had happened was…” No, He was gone on being who He was and getting ready for what was about to happen in His life. When word got out that Jesus was no longer in the tomb, the religious folks (who by the way, had previously hung Him up on the cross) panicked and started telling lies. When Jesus encountered people, some folks didn’t recognize Him and some others doubted Him. Many of these were the same folks He walked with, ate with, or perhaps did miracles for. I supposed that didn’t bother Him. He stayed in peace. How do I know? Because He is peace. He continued to journey forward while preparing to go higher.
So hey, in the words of Tupac (Oh no she didn’t just say Tupac! LOL), “I ain’t mad at cha” if you don’t recognize me, if you doubt me, if you don’t see my forward movement, or whatever. Keep your spices to yourself. Hang out at the tomb if you want. As for me, well, someone will eventually let you know that the barriers that once blocked me or kept me confined have been moved. I already left. I’m living me! I’m journeying forward, preparing to go higher, and choosing to love every minute of it! Let’s go.
Walking in Extraordinary Times!
Wendy M. Reynolds