It’s been a while since I’ve written here. I’d try to write but to be honest, so much has been going on and I’ve had so much on my mind and heart that my fingers just haven’t been able to keep up with my thoughts. So often I wished for some type of futuristic cable that I could hook one end up to my brain and the other end to a computer and automatically download my thoughts whenever I wanted to. But for some reason (probably due to all my sister’s sci-fi movies), I think that could end badly.
Although I have taken time to do some personal writing, I’ve been doing more listening than anything else- listening for that still small voice, listening to my own heart and thoughts- trying to keep myself steady and focused as I adjust to the new ground I’ve stepped onto. I’ve also listened to the voices of the people around me- my family, my friends, the “experts”, the spiritual leadership, … not really as a means of seeking advice or direction but as a means of evaluating and adjusting what I often call “The Front Row Seats”.
You may have plenty of people in your life but those who occupy the Front Row Seats represent those who hold a place of influence in your life. They have your ear. They speak into your life. Their words are impactful. Not everyone, no matter how much you love them, can have a front row seat in your life and you can’t expect to sit in the front row seat of everyone else’s life. I had to re-evaluate whose voices I had allowed access and influence to the important spots in my life. Who have I been drawn to and had in error given a front row seat? Those who sit in my front row can only be those who believe in God and have committed to living a life that reflects that belief, those who are full of purpose and passion, those who believe in me, speak God’s word over me, those whom support and celebrate who I am and where I am going and those for whom I can do the same.
In Luke 1, after Mary (the soon to be Mother of Jesus) was given amazing and seemingly impossible news concerning what was about to occur in her life, she went and connected with Elizabeth- someone who was having her own encounter with God, someone who was pregnant with greatness- someone who celebrated her as soon as she walked in, someone who spoke over her the same thing that the angel had spoken over her- someone who recognized that Mary would give birth to someone who would forever change the world, in spite how impossible it seemed! That’s the type of person we should have in our front row seats!
Where are the Elizabeths?! Where are the one’s who will, without false motives, cheer you on- the one’s who are unselfish- not just consumed with thoughts of personal fame. Where are the one’s who won’t let you compromise, but demand that your God given greatness comes forth? That’s who I need in my front row. Yeah, someone who may not understand it all, but who I can talk to and who can relate to the process and to where I’m going- someone who knows that what’s inside of me and what is inside of him or her is not meant to be competitive or combative but is meant to be supportive and work together in order to make a difference- to bring good news and hope to a world so in need of it.
So. umm… long story short- I’ve made some personal adjustments as well as some relational adjustments and now… well, let’s go!