As I sit here writing tonight (actually, it’s the wee hours of the morning) I have so much on my mind- so much so that I do not know where to begin to write. Have you ever been at a point in your life that you cannot explain? It’s an intense place. It’s an interesting place. It can even be considered an exciting place in a strange sort of way. It’s a place that you’ve never been. You’re changing before your very eyes– maybe not physically but internally. It’s hard to explain this place.
I sense a shifting in my life. It feels like life is about to change again dramatically and drastically for the better! “Well, Wendy, where is your proof? Did you hit the mega millions? Have you been invited to the Oprah show? What’s up?”
All I can tell you is that I have been making a conscious effort to stay in the presence of God– stay in a state of worship in spite of what I see going on around me. I’ve been making a conscious effort to speak the Word of God in spite of… well, just in spite of.
Since I’ve made that “quality decision” (A Sharon Lawrence-Taylor often used phrase)- the decision to declare only what God has spoken, the decision to believe in hope when there appears to be none (Romans 4)- the decision to take God at His word, believing that He won’t fail (because He can’t)- I feel a peace emerging- a peace that I haven’t felt at this level in quite some time. Some people think I’m in a state of denial. No, I see the problems. As a matter of fact, those problems often get right in my face and challenge me at the very core of my belief! However, I believe God-period!!
Yeah, I know, things don’t look good in the world and individually we seem to be experiencing some of our most challenging times. I know that it makes absolutely no “natural” sense to be encouraged- to be excited when life often appears to be in chaos. However, it is time for the Children of God to close our natural eyes and see through our spiritual eyes. In spite of everything, God is taking us somewhere. It’s an interesting journey.
You may say, “Wendy, you don’t know what I’m going through! You don’t know the pain and anguish that consumes me. I’ve lost family on this journey. I’ve lost friends on this journey. I’ve lost my ability to sleep, I’ve lost my reputation, I’ve lost… me on this journey.”
Let’s just be honest. Life is often quite difficult. At times life and the enemy of our faith hit us with blows so hard that we never think we can recover. Whew, trust me, I know it’s not easy but we have to believe that the Word of God will not only change our circumstances but it will change us and propel us into the right place- a place of wholeness, a place of healing, and a place where we can effectively influence the world for the kingdom of God.
Someone told me the other day, “Wendy, you’re just the strong one… your faith is unbelievable.” I had to laugh out loud. I’ve had so many moments of weakness. I have had to believe God for the impossible, just like we all do. I have even felt like David, who said, “Lord, if I had wings like a dove, for then I would fly away… (See Psalm 55. Whew! Thank God that He didn’t give me wings!!!). But in the midst of my weaknesses, in the midst of the unexpected storms, in the midst of the struggles and the vicissitudes of life, there always arises that one question that I can never get away from: “Wendy, Who/what do you believe?” At the end of the day, my attitude has to reflect my belief. I have to keep casting down those thoughts, those imaginations, those beliefs, and all those things that oppose the word of God. Is it easy to do? No. Do I get it right all the time? Nope.
I believe we are walking in extraordinary times. That is the reason why our trials and pains have been at a level we have never seen before. Everything around us is shaking. Every place that we have put our faith in (other than God) is shaking. Many of us have experienced incredible heartaches that can’t be describe with our words. I spoke to a person the other day who said, “I don’t think I can take one more blow or make one more step!” He cried painful tears. When I heard his pain, my heart hurt for him. I asked God, “Lord, how do you encourage people in this hour- people who are experiencing such pain, such loss, such doubt, and confusion? I often don’t have the words an often times I’m fighting as well. However we have to allow God’s word to comfort and strengthen us. When we don’t think we can take another step, somehow God strengthens us to take it. When our heart is hurting so bad that it feels like it is going to explode inside of us, somehow God keeps it from exploding. He alone gives us the strength to stand.
God is bringing many of us through such difficult times but He is bringing us to an incredible place. Things are changing. We’re changing. We are being revealed. Yes, you, the real you- the incredible you, the unstoppable you, the you that God designed from the beginning of time is emerging. Don’t give up. Don’t give in. Stand in faith. Stay in a place of worship to our God! Hold on to the word of God. Keep His word coming out of your mouth! Keep confessing it. Keep believing it. Understand that in spite of and in the midst of everything, God is in control! God’s got you. You’re going to make it and when you come through, you will be able to strengthen your brother and sister (Luke 22:32, 1 Corinthians 1:3-4).
Well, those are just some thoughts of the moment. Stay encouraged and stay in God’s presence!
Wendy M. Reynolds